Confessions of Chaos

Ramblings and Reflections of a Life Lived in Disarray…

  • Written in Pencil

    Written in Pencil

    When I was in high school I took a creative writing class. Although we did have regular assignments, the class functioned mainly as a workshop, writing whatever we wanted and having our peers give us feedback. It was in this class that I had a class mate ask me why I was writing in pencil Read more


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  • Feminist

    Feminist

    There is so much nuance in each person’s life experience. We all have several different identities and all of those variables determine how we move through and interact with the world. I think about this a lot, how the different identities that I hold and have held have affected me. How the identities of others have affected Read more


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  • A Love Letter to Louisville

    A Love Letter to Louisville

    One morning when I was out for a walk it struck me that I have been living in Louisville for about 5 years. This is the longest I’ve stayed in one place since I was 18!  I’ve lived all over the mid-west, Illinois, Iowa, Minnesota, Wisconsin, I even stayed in Colorado for a very short Read more


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  • Moving Forward.

    Moving Forward.

    Last week I finally got rid of my meth neighbors, I moved into an apartment complex right off of Lexington Road. This road provides easy access to the rest of the city that I love. I am the first person to live in this unit, I have an in unit washer and dryer, and a Read more


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  • Growth.

    Growth.

    We are all students of life just struggling our way through the class, with the goal of learning as much as possible. I hope to always be growing and learning, to be shaping and molding myself into the best Melissa I can be. I think in some ways growth, although not always for the best, Read more


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  • Grateful. Thankful. Blessed.

    Grateful. Thankful. Blessed.

    It’s 2:38am and I am awaken by a crash outside my bedroom window, followed by loud voices like the ones that follow college freshmen back to their dorm after their first Friday on campus. This has become a semi regular occurrence, my neighbor’s good time has become a very unwelcome middle of the night alarm Read more


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  • 401 West Main

    401 West Main

    There is a building on the corner of main St, With 23 floors of office space and parking garage underneath. Women in pantyhose and heels stand outside while their cigarettes burn, And at 3pm men in sport coats hurry home, or where ever men in sport coats go. Glass windows line the exterior walls And Read more


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  • Louisville Love

    Louisville Love

    I grew up next to a cornfield… Not even joking. The small town in Illinois that encompassed my childhood fit every cliché you could think of. There was one high school that thrived on football, everyone waved at each other, and our downtown was composed of 3 bars and 4 churches. Small town life defiantly Read more


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  • Everything I’ve Ever Wanted

    Everything I’ve Ever Wanted

    When I was a little girl, maybe six or seven, Disney movies permeated my deepest desires. My number one wish was to be like the princesses and find my true love. That want has stayed with me throughout my life, and to be honest I wasted a few of the best years of my life Read more


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  • Silent

    Silent

    Boom! Thunder claps outside, ominous, making the interior of this small apartment seem even more like a prison than normal. Smack! The door swings open, hits the wall and you stumble in, words sloppy, hair tussled. … I sit, silent, consider my options… I choose to stay silent. WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! You yell sharp Read more


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