Confessions of Chaos

Observations from the Threshold…

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  • How We Change the World

    I think we often imagine changing the world as something big. I picture movements, protests, policies, and revolutions. We imagine change as something that happens loudly, publicly, and all at once. And sometimes it does. Most people I’ve met want to do good. They want to leave the world knowing they made it a better… Read more


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  • The Question After the Answer

    For most of my life, I thought I knew what I wanted. I wanted to find a partner. I wanted a family. I wanted to be chosen. Almost every decision I made until about two years ago was made for someone else. Looking back, it makes sense that I thought about things this way. We… Read more


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  • Written in Pencil

    Written in Pencil

    When I was in high school I took a creative writing class. Although we did have regular assignments, the class functioned mainly as a workshop, writing whatever we wanted and having our peers give us feedback. It was in this class that I had a class mate ask me why I was writing in pencil… Read more


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  • Feminist

    Feminist

    There is so much nuance in each person’s life experience. We all have several different identities and all of those variables determine how we move through and interact with the world. I think about this a lot, how the different identities that I hold and have held have affected me. How the identities of others have affected… Read more


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  • A Love Letter to Louisville

    A Love Letter to Louisville

    One morning when I was out for a walk it struck me that I have been living in Louisville for about 5 years. This is the longest I’ve stayed in one place since I was 18!  I’ve lived all over the mid-west, Illinois, Iowa, Minnesota, Wisconsin, I even stayed in Colorado for a very short… Read more


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  • Moving Forward.

    Moving Forward.

    Last week I finally got rid of my meth neighbors, I moved into an apartment complex right off of Lexington Road. This road provides easy access to the rest of the city that I love. I am the first person to live in this unit, I have an in unit washer and dryer, and a… Read more


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  • Growth.

    Growth.

    We are all students of life just struggling our way through the class, with the goal of learning as much as possible. I hope to always be growing and learning, to be shaping and molding myself into the best Melissa I can be. I think in some ways growth, although not always for the best,… Read more


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  • Grateful. Thankful. Blessed.

    Grateful. Thankful. Blessed.

    It’s 2:38am and I am awaken by a crash outside my bedroom window, followed by loud voices like the ones that follow college freshmen back to their dorm after their first Friday on campus. This has become a semi regular occurrence, my neighbor’s good time has become a very unwelcome middle of the night alarm… Read more


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  • 401 West Main

    401 West Main

    There is a building on the corner of main St, With 23 floors of office space and parking garage underneath. Women in pantyhose and heels stand outside while their cigarettes burn, And at 3pm men in sport coats hurry home, or where ever men in sport coats go. Glass windows line the exterior walls And… Read more


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  • Louisville Love

    Louisville Love

    I grew up next to a cornfield… Not even joking. The small town in Illinois that encompassed my childhood fit every cliché you could think of. There was one high school that thrived on football, everyone waved at each other, and our downtown was composed of 3 bars and 4 churches. Small town life defiantly… Read more


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