Self-Absorbed

Historically I have not always had very high self-esteem,

In fact, you could probably say the opposite.

It just doesn’t come natural to me and

A lot of the experiences I’ve encountered though out my 20’s have reinforced the idea that I’m garbage.

It is exhausting to wander through life second guessing every step you take.

It is miserable to look in the mirror every morning and literally loathe what you see.

There are lots of complexities hiding in the shadows of self-hate.

But the ugliest by far is how all-consuming hate can be.

My mind become so obsessed with the degradation of myself

There was no room for anything else.

This is something I have made my mission at change.